Prayer: It’s Time: Questions and Answers

Mark 14:32-38 ESV  And they went to a place called Gethsemane. And he said to his disciples, "Sit here while I pray." (33)  And he took with him Peter and James and John, and began to be greatly distressed and troubled.  (34)  And he said to them, "My soul is very sorrowful, even to death. Remain here and watch." (35)  And going a little farther, he fell on the ground and prayed that, if it were possible, the hour might pass from him.  (36)  And he said, "Abba, Father, all things are possible for you. Remove this cup from me. Yet not what I will, but what you will." (37)  And he came and found them sleeping, and he said to Peter, "Simon, are you asleep? Could you not watch one hour? (38)  Watch and pray that you may not enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak."

To this day, my parents have one way of annoying me more than any other thing.  No matter how many times I hear it, man, it gets under my skin.  I love my parents but when they say “No,” UGH!  Really?  They said no to polo shirts and Guess jeans.  They said no to that party or no to going on that trip.  When I asked my parents to go to a concert on a weeknight, their first response was, you guessed: NO!  Why? Because my sister had done it and then couldn’t go to school the next day cause she was sick.  My best friend, Chris, said, “Ask them to give you a chance.  You aren’t your sister!”  I did and my parents said “Yes” and you can bet, I was in school the next day too!  Still, there is no magic way to get them to say “yes.”

The ancient near eastern cult religions that surrounded the Jews in the Old Testament and the Greek and Roman gods who surrounded the early Christians, had certain beliefs and practices influencing us to this day.  Namely, if you do certain rituals correctly, say the name of god/goddesses rightly and do your duty, the gods MUST respond to your request.  Sadly, these cultic approaches remain part of our society and influence us still today, even in the church.  Some teach and preach there are secrets in the BIble to gain wealth & happiness.

But this isn't what the Bible teaches. In fact, I suspect many of us think Garth Brooks had it right, there are sometimes when we need to thank God for unanswered prayers.  But if we look a little more closely, it is not God’s desire to squash all our fun and deny us our wishes.  We must examine our motive: “Do we want God or do we want God’s stuff?”

So how does God go about answering prayers?  Let’s look at the root of Jesus’ prayer in the Garden: “...not what I will, but what you will.”  Jesus seem to be making the point he does not want to die if it is possible to avoid it.  If there is another way Father, open the way...BUT don’t do what I want do.  Do what your will knows to be best.  (some say to pray this way is a cop-out but Jesus did it!) At the root of why God doesn’t answer our prayers OUR WAY is because GOD’s WILL MUST BE FULFILLED.

Looking at the Bible we find at least four possible answers to our prayers:
  1. Yes (Psalm 118:5; Matthew 6:33-34)
  2. No (Disobedience: James 4:3; Teaching us: Hebrews 12:5-11)
  3. Wait (God’s time isn’t ours: Luke 18:7-8: Ecclesiastes 3:11)
  4. God’s way (Different than our ways: Isaiah 55:8-9)

Jesus taught us how to pray and we looked at this last week from Matthew 6:9-14.  What we’ve not yet done though is to consider what is God looking for; just what does God expect?  Jesus doesn’t seemed thrilled at the disciples behavior in the Garden.  Their most urgent desire is to get some sleep and is totally different than Jesus’ motivations.  What motivation ought we to be looking for?  Let’s look at James’ writings (James is one of my favorites after all). James writes:

“You ask and do not receive, because you ask wrongly, to spend it on your passions.” (James 4:3 ESV).  Our motives are rarely pure and James calls this out.  Our most base approach to prayer is all about us.  But going furtherm James observes:

“The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working.  (17)  Elijah was a man with a nature like ours, and he prayed fervently that it might not rain, and for three years and six months it did not rain on the earth.  (18)  Then he prayed again, and heaven gave rain, and the earth bore its fruit.  (James 5:16b-18 ESV)”   The “righteous person” is one who is acceptable to God and to figure this out, James says look at Elijah. Elijah wasn’t perfect or full of faith - he doubted and was depressed.  But he responded to God’s grace by being obedient - Elijah desired to honor God.

Monk and writer, Simon Tugwell shares the secret which is no real secret, “We had thought of God as the dispenser of all the good things we would possibly desire; but in a very real sense, God has nothing to give at all except himself (pg 124.”Prayer: Living With God”).”  God wants us to want him, not because he is some needy, codependent deity.  Jesus was pointing us to God because there is no person, no entity in all creation who is truly worth our time and energy as God!  This has been the single most important revelation (personal understanding) which has changed not just HOW I pray but WHY I pray and WHAT I pray.  I am convinced it holds the possibility of changing not just how you pray but how you relate to God.  




Praye: It's Time - Pray Like Jesus


Matthew 6:7-15
7 ‘When you are praying, do not heap up empty phrases as the Gentiles do; for they think that they will be heard because of their many words. 8Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him.
9 ‘Pray then in this way:
Our Father in heaven,
  hallowed be your name.
10   Your kingdom come.
  Your will be done,
    on earth as it is in heaven.
11   Give us this day our daily bread.
12   And forgive us our debts,
    as we also have forgiven our debtors.
13   And do not bring us to the time of trial,
    but rescue us from the evil one.
14For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you; 15but if you do not forgive others, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.

We communicate with one another through many ways.  We use our eyes, our hands, our entire body.  Today we e-mail, text, tweet, blog, and instagram.  Yet with all these ways of communication, our verbal conversations and cues maybe the single most important way we communicate.   I was reading recently that we use all these other forms so much, it is rare that we even use our phones to actually call somebody.  Conversation is reserved for the most important people in our lives.

And prayer, whether verbal or internal, is at its root, a conversation with God.  Professor Gary Waller observes, “Prayer is THE core activity of the Spirit-filled life and therefore, prayer is essential; there is no spiritual growth without it (“Spiritual Formation, A Wesleyan Paradigm,” 117).”  John Wesley, founder of the Methodist movement said prayer is “the grand means of drawing near to God.”  It is time to learn for the church to learn to pray.

The disciples understood this whole thing.  As Jews, they knew prayer to be at the heart of their religion.  The only regret the Pharisees had in life is that they couldn’t pray 24-7.  So after seeing Jesus at prayer, one of the disciples shuffles over and says to Jesus, “Teach us to pray.”  And so he gives them what we call the Lord’s Prayer.  Jesus gives us a model prayer - one we can pray as is AND one which we can improvise with, ‘Jazz’ it up - make it your own.  Pastor Craig Groeshel (lifechurch.tv) describes the model with 5 P’s:

  1. Seek God’s PRESENCE rightly: “Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name…” The word hallowed really means “to make holy,” to set apart from the everyday.  There is NOTHING ordinary about God.

  1. Seek God’s PRIORITIES first: “...your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.”  It is so much easier to consider our own perspective over anyone else’s; our point of view matters first; I demand my rights; give me what I deserve!  (We really DON’T want the last one, not really. See point #4)  Jesus says put God’s priorities on the top of the list, and in Matthew 6:33 says, “everything else will work.”

  1. Seek God’s PROVISIONS for life: “Give us today our daily bread…”  Sorry, the idea of “name it and claim it” is not understood in Jesus’ teaching.  Jesus did not do this for himself and teaches his disciples to keep in mind we are to pray for bread; keep it simple.  

  1. Seek God’s PARDON for sin: “Forgive us our trespasses(debts) as we have forgiven our trespassers (debtors).”  Remember wanting what we deserve? Debtors in Jesus’ day often went to prison.  We owe God our lives and we need to forgive as much as we need forgiveness.

  1. Seek God’s POWER to overcome: “Lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one.” I really did not and do not like having a low vision disability which is why I joke about it. I don’t like large crowds much, I’m not as good at 4 Square or Wiffle Ball, and I don’t like driving in hard rain.  But facing temptations and dealing with Satan’s minions?  I’ve always needed help with those.  On our own, we are always going to be losers.  Jesus is saying “own up to it.”

This is the way to pray Jesus said.  You don’t need fancy words, a theology degree or to be ordained.  You just need to do it.  Jesus had a way of keeping things simple.  Prayer is one of them.


Prayer, It's Time: The Freedom to Know God


Psalm 5:1-3
To the leader: for the flutes. A Psalm of David.
1 Give ear to my words, O Lord;
  give heed to my sighing.
2 Listen to the sound of my cry,
  my King and my God,
  for to you I pray.
3 O Lord, in the morning you hear my voice;
  in the morning I plead my case to you, and watch.

He has been known as “The Father of the American Revolution.”  While far from being a role model, Samuel Adams was one of the most outspoken leaders and critics of Great Britain in the years leading up to the Revolution.  He founded the Sons of Liberty and was behind the original Tea Party held in Boston Harbor.  He was no diplomat, politician or general, but he was a driving force in the movement that would sweep the colonies.

And he maybe an odd choice to start talking about prayer, but Donald Phillips offers an interesting quote in his book, “The Founding Fathers on Leadership,” where Adams observes, “We are not what we should be. We should labor for the future [rather] than for the present moment (18).”  What Samuel Adams was saying about his vision for our nation, can aptly be applied to our own lives, especially as we think about prayer: we are not what we should be.

It is time for us to deal with prayer, past-time for some of us and right on time for a lot of us.  Just like there was nothing easy about the American Revolution, dealing with prayer, practicing prayer is a revolution in our own lives.  We may think of it as something of weight, a feeling of guilt for not doing it more when in fact prayer expresses the freedom to know God.

You may feel ill equipped to pray: “What do I say to GOD!?  Surely God has better things to do than listen to me talk, right?!  Does God even listen?  Prayer seems to be something boring.  I don’t have time to PRAY!”  I suspect at least one of those resonated with you.

Prayer is CONVERSATION with God.  I have been a certified marriage counselor for almost 20 years now.  The main thing I work with couples on is conversation skills.  There are two parts to how it works: Assertive speaking and Active listening.  This is the heart of ALL successful relationships.  Remember the old saying, “You have two ears and one mouth, act accordingly.”  It applies here so let’s think about today as a time for some prayer therapy.

It has been a long journey to get where I am spiritually speaking.  I know it is hard for people to think a pastor would have a hard time praying but it is true.  For many years I struggled with what prayer ought to be for me.  I would fall asleep in long prayer meetings.  Getting up early was tough or I’d fall asleep at night.  I had a tough time trying to keep prayer lists straight.  Do you know when prayer started to make sense?  It was when I started to listen.

When we look at these three short verses from Psalms we find these two conversation skills I mentioned.  I’d like to start with the skill of active listening as this is what I have found most people struggle with. One translation regarding verse 3 says, “I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation,” and another, “I will order my prayer to Thee and eagerly watch.”  

My understanding of prayer changed when I learned the importance of listening to God, which takes the form of both 1) Observing life and 2) Listening for God’s voice.  Consider 1 Kings 19, we find Elijah, the prophet, heard a gentle whisper and that was the voice of God.  Jesus reminds us as well the sheep “listen to his voice; I know them, and they follow me.” John 10:27.  The two main ways God may speak are in circumstances and through the reading of the Bible.  This is ACTIVE LISTENING in relating to God.

And the Psalm writer says we are to talk with God as well, in counseling this is about being ASSERTIVE.  The writer of Psalm 3 doesn’t tread lightly as he prays: “Give ear to my words… Listen to my cry…”  I shared rather personally last week about how I have been dealing with our family’s struggles around my wife’s cancer.  Let me be clear and concise: I DON’T LIKE IT and I DON’T HAVE ANYONE TO TAKE IT UP WITH!  Ah!!! But I do - GOD.

Philippians 4:6 reminds us “...in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.”  Peter wrote in his first letter, “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you (1 Peter 5:7).”  Even so, in my studies and experiences, I think we lack ASSERTIVENESS in our praying.  We kinda “wish” on God.  But consider this story,  I got Logan an awesome laptop for Christmas.  But a hinge busted - faulty - and a certain company refused to pay for it.  I got on the phone and e-mail and let them know I wasn’t happy.  If I can be assertive about a computer, surely I can and should be assertive with God; God asks us to be!

Remember, this is conversation - you have to be willing to listen.  God was an active listener throughout the Book of Job till chapter 38 when he says, “Who is this that darkens counsel by words without knowledge? Now gird up your loins like a man, and I will ask you, and you instruct Me!(38:2-3)”  Prayer is not for the faint of heart - if you’re going to talk with God, then be ready for when God talks back.

We have been given an incredible freedom to know God.  More and more people are skeptical or feel they need to go off seeking some mountain top experience.  But more and more, I have come to learn: God is not silent. We are not listening.  You are not who you should be - Jesus gave his life to give us the freedom to boldly approach the Throne of Grace and be changed by that grace. Prayer is central to this change.  It is time - start a conversation with God.


Being United Methodist: We Pick You!


Take a moment and read John 15:9-17

When did you get picked?  I was a perrenial bench warmer through most of my baseball years.  I admit it!  Back then I wasn’t the fastest or best hitter and surely not the best catcher either.   My senior year of high school I got clocked running just under 4.5  in the 40 yard dash.  Oh well.  I can’t say I was the top of the list of dancers for homecoming or prom either.  As I got older I, learned a lot of us growing up felt much the same way.   One of the reasons I became a youth minister was because I sensed God wanted me to help every teenager I could, survive these difficult years, these years when it seems, nobody wants to pick you.

It may seem rather odd that I would choose this sermon as one of those in my series about being United Methodist - “We Pick You!”  There are those who might argue that we don’t pick everyone.  You may disagree with my reasoning or you might agree, but the statement about our beliefs and this Scripture is a powerful one and, I am convinced, a true one.  

If you go to the website umc.org and look up what we believe, you’ll find that we are a denomination which holds a high view of humanity.  We believe with Genesis (1:27) that God created human beings in God’s image. The Latin theological term is “Imago Dei,” and how you’ll often find this idea expressed.  We also believe that sin has marred that image, damaged it, wounded it; but sin cannot do away with it.   And in addition to these, we believe that people cannot experience what it is to be fully human outside a relationship with God through Jesus Christ.  We believe that God said indeed - “I Pick You!”

Read our Book of Discipline, this is a book we publish every four years following our General Conference meeting I mentioned last.  This book does not take the place of the Bible mind you but puts into print these unique aspects of our UM journey and you’ll find this stated most clearly.  But I think to really get this and consider it, we need to look at Scripture and some John Wesley’s sermons.

John bookmarks these words in 15:9 and 15:17 with the concept or characteristic of love.  The Bible doesn’t portray love as a sappy emotion like a pop song or romantic comedy.  Love is a radical, sacrificing behavior.  John 15:9-17 is a radical understanding of love, I think,
rivals Paul’s poetic words of 1 Corinthians 13.  God, revealed to us in the Bible, is love.  It is the very nature of who God was, is, and always will be.

United Methodist recognize two works of John Wesley to be authoritative to our understanding, his Notes on the New Testament and The 52 Standard Sermons.  It is in Sermon #45, “The New Birth,” where Wesley identifies that love is the one “affection” which humanity had in our beginning.  “Love filled the whole of [humanity’s] soul… and it streamed continually toward God and was reflected out to all creation. [1]”  

But love is of a neutral sort as we have seen in Paul’s writings, that humans might love sin as unconditionally, sacrificially as they love God.    So while we might be able to model that cruciform, sacrificing love of God demonstrated on the cross of Jesus Christ, we were and are susceptable to being tripped up and falling in love with a world which promises riches and provides ruin.

Jesus makes clear our hope begins at the point of his choosing.  Jesus, God’s Son, says in verse 16 - “I pick you!”  And loving which God is doing and offering is a love the equalizes the playing field.  God is no respecter of powerful people, politcians, religious  self-righteousness.  God is no respecter of popularity or slugging percentages or bank accounts, dictators or presidents.  In fact it is the exact opposite when we look at Jesus’ parables.
In Luke 14, Jesus tells the story of a rich man’s banquet which all the popular and powerful had been invited to attend.  But when the time came, they didn’t come and so the rich man said to his servants,  ‘Go out quickly into the streets and alleys of the town and bring in the poor, the crippled, the blind and the lame.’(14:21)”  The Imago Dei is in us all.

We will not find that completeness in anyone or in anything.   United Methodists hold that all people are of sacred worth, but we also recognize what John is saying -  that joy is made complete when we abide in Christ Jesus alone.  The love of God is what completes us, that redeems the image of God in each of us.  God’s love is the love alone which will not fail, will not forsake us.  The ultimate expression of love is not going to be found in any marriage or civil union, it is in laying down one’s life.

But what difference does it make? What does it mean for how we live and act? What if you lived and acted toward everyone with this truth in your mind: "the image of God is in that person?"  What hatreds do you harbor towards someone of another race or religion? The image of God is in them. Can you accept that God's image is in the inmate at the prison? Can you accept God's image is also in the terrorist? Believing is only part of the equation of following Jesus. It is also in how we act - can you say it? Can you say, "God picks you!" This is another example to us of the Good News Jesus brings. Go to tell the world!





[1] Debra J. Du Heaume, http://www.academia.edu/3275645/John_Wesleys_Theology_of_Imago_Dei

Being United Methodist: We Stand Connected


I suspect like all of us.  You make a statement or post something on Facebook and somebody makes an observation: “Hey, you don’t have all the facts here!  You’re clearly mistaken (or maybe they don’t say it so nice).”  Your response?  Yep, you’re right.  "I stand corrected."  Thankfully there is Snopes.com and FactChecker websites to help keep us and our politicians inline.  These days correcting can truly be a full-time job! But correcting isn't to be OUR full-time job. Being connected is far more important.

Read John 15:1-8. The example of the vine which Jesus teaches is hard to misunderstand.  The image of connectedness is unmistakable and not surprisingly, churches, like our next door neighbor, have taken the image as the underlying image for their church.  As Christians, as followers of Jesus Christ, if we are not connected in relationship with Jesus Christ, if we are not in prayer, in worship and in ministry, we are not a branch.  We are a stick. Sticks make great firewood.

But the United Methodist Church takes the analogy of Jesus a little bit farther.  We are not just connected people but we are a connected CHURCH.  Yes, we are part of the Body of Christ, but at our founding and in the foundering years prior to our becoming a denomination, Methodist Christians saw that their gatherings best served God’s Kingdom by being connected.  Under the organization of a General Conference that meets every four years, there are Annual Conferences led by Bishops and supported by ordained clergy called District Superintendents who help local churches, led by other clergy, to live out the mission of the Church - “To Make Disciples of Jesus Christ for the Transformation of the World.”  

In our beginnings, under the leadership of John and Charles Wesley, Methodist Christians would give a penny to support the missions of the church.  What became called apportionment giving is really “missional giving.”  Each church in the connection is asked to give a portion of their budget to support both “the making of disciples” and “the transformation of the world.”  This includes retirement homes, children's homes, colleges, camping ministry and evangelism.  But that isn’t all.  

Did you know?  The UMC is the ONLY protestant denomination to have permanent offices in Russia?  I spent a week with Bishop Eduard Khegay of Russia at the 5 Day Academy and his team will lead the first 5 Day Academy this summer in Eurasia.
Did you know?  Following Hurricane Katrina, FEMA, for the first time ever asked a non-profit to take over recovery in Alabama.  It was the United Methodist Council on Relief (UMCOR).
Did you know?  20 years ago a United Methodist Church began in South Korea through apportioned giving.  As of 2009, KumNon Methodist Church was the largest UMC - 112,000. ("Why do we pay apportionments again?" Bob McKibben)
Did you know? Rinehardt University is a UMC funded college.  The Walden’s have a daughter attending and soon Connor will be there this fall.  Your portion supports this mission.

We have taken some important steps as a church in recent years and we have benefited from our standing connected to Jesus Christ and with other United Methodist Churches.  As we dream for the future, we will have support of from our Connectional Ministries Office who will help us dream. Our giving to our mission is a central part of our mission.  

I also think of it a bit more personal too. Did you ever think that when a pastor is appointed to your church, another church has given a portion of their membership?  Starkville UMC in Mississippi, Jarvis Memorial UMC in Greenville, NC and Gainesville UMC in Georgia, all invested in me and prepared me for ministry. I go where sent because I'm part of the connection, part of the vine. Our model is that of God who sent Jesus Christ to us, God gave of his very self so we might become part of the vine. How we give is part of the connection and so is how we live. We are our brother's and sister's keeper but also the supporter of the Gospel lived and shared throughout the world. This is our portion and one of the ways being a United Methodist Christian is a unique journey. So how will you you live and give this week?



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Give Up: It Isn't That Easy.


John 12:20-33
20 Now among those who went up to worship at the festival were some Greeks. 21They came to Philip, who was from Bethsaida in Galilee, and said to him, ‘Sir, we wish to see Jesus.’ 22Philip went and told Andrew; then Andrew and Philip went and told Jesus. 23Jesus answered them, ‘The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified. 24Very truly, I tell you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains just a single grain; but if it dies, it bears much fruit. 25Those who love their life lose it, and those who hate their life in this world will keep it for eternal life. 26Whoever serves me must follow me, and where I am, there will my servant be also. Whoever serves me, the Father will honour. 27 ‘Now my soul is troubled. And what should I say—“Father, save me from this hour”? No, it is for this reason that I have come to this hour.28Father, glorify your name.’ Then a voice came from heaven, ‘I have glorified it, and I will glorify it again.’ 29The crowd standing there heard it and said that it was thunder. Others said, ‘An angel has spoken to him.’30Jesus answered, ‘This voice has come for your sake, not for mine.31Now is the judgement of this world; now the ruler of this world will be driven out. 32And I, when I am lifted up from the earth, will draw all people to myself.’ 33He said this to indicate the kind of death he was to die.

It isn’t that easy.

How do you follow a crucified God and expect there to be no effort?

In the mid-1990s, the movie, “Dead Man Walking,” starring Susan Sarandon and Sean Penn was released.  Sarandon won the Oscar for her portrayal of Sister Helen Prejean, the spiritual director for death row inmate, Matthew Poncelet.  It was based on a true story and it showed the struggle and strain, confrontation and doubts of Sister Helen.  At the movie’s end, following the funeral of Poncelet, one of his victim’s parents says, he wishes he had Sister Helen’s faith, to which she replies, “It’s not faith.  It’s not that easy.  It’s work.”

the advent of social media allowed many of us to reconnect with others from our past.  As I reconnected through MySpace and then Facebook, with friends and schoolmates, I got comments such as, “How did you make it into ministry?,” “How did you keep your faith going?” and others.  As I thought back, I have shared that it began with picking up a little book in the back of our church at Jarvis Memorial UMC called, “The Upper Room.”  I read it everyday.  Prayed and wrote down what I thought God was speaking to me.  I had decided to follow Jesus.

I think it is a matter of choice, “do you want knowledge OF God” or “do you want to KNOW God?”  You can make a nice career or hobby out of one but the other, well, you make LIFE out of it.  It is a choice which narrows down your decisions and impacts the meaning of your world.  To chose to be friends with someone or marry someone, has long meant excluding others.  But to really KNOW God?  To be in relationship to The Divine? The Holy One?  Well then, you’ve got to Give Up.

If you’ve been with this the past few weeks, the words of John’s gospel will sound familiar I suspect.  Back on week three, we read Mark 8:31-38 and how Jesus said, “you’ve got to deny yourself! You’ve got to lose yourself!”  As we’ve seen, “GIVING UP” is a big theme for Jesus.  It seems to be very near the center of the Christian faith (and nearly any other world religion).

There is some version of this passage in all four of the Gospels.  Because it is such an important theme, it is likely Jesus preached on it on more than one occasion.  But here is bit different structure which leads me to consider what more Jesus might be saying.  It starts with these “Greeks” who want to see Jesus.  We don’t know more than that though, John doesn’t even tell us if they get to see Jesus!  Once the request comes from Philip and Andrew, Jesus breaks out into teaching.

The significant word here is “glorified.”  The root in Greek is doxa and the root of the word “doxology,” which we sing.  Like “righteousness,” it is part of the very NATURE and being of God.  It is a given, that God deserves honor, that God is full of splendor and radiance.  Say to a devout Jew in the first century that God is to be glorified, you’d likely get a “duh!”

But the New Testament and specifically Jesus’ words here in John make an additional point.  It is one which the voice from Heaven confirms -Jesus is to be glorified too.  At this time, no one has seen Jesus glorified but the voice confirms Jesus’ prayer for the Son of Man to be glorified, and the time is at hand.  And so implied, is that no one had yet truly SEEN Jesus.  

This seems to me an important aspect of the text and Jesus is trying to help us understand, “You can have knowledge of the Son of Man” OR “You can KNOW the Son of Man.”  BIG difference and if you want to KNOW the Son of Man, to be accounted with him, to be part of the Kingdom of God, to experience and see God fully glorified...You Have To Give Up.  You have to die, just like a grain of wheat; just like a seed.  It is the one death you have a choice about.
Every fall, at our home, we have these massive acorns that fall on our drive way.  I have never seen acorns this big until we moved to our current home.  We run over them with the car and the pop and crush.  I throw them down the driveway and our kitten, Zoe, chases them.  Most of them all just die with nothing to show for it.  But like wheat, if it fall INTO the earth and dies, AH-HA!  It is reborn as a tree and produces MORE acorns!

SO what is next?  Jesus points us in that very direction.  Do you love your life - your achievements, your habits and hobbies, your stuff OR do you love God?  Are you serving YOU or are you serving Jesus?  Are you serving others?  John Wesley pointed out in one of his sermons, that there is “A More Excellent Way,” but it will take effort.  On Easter Sunday, I’m beginning a new series called, “Loving Large.”  But there is no need to wait till then to start dying to self and living for Jesus

I Don't Want To Write.


This may well be one of the silliest things I have written.  I keep starting and stopping.  I’ve got journal entries and partial blog posts written only to a point and now just backing up in a folder.  I like to write but here is the truth, I don’t want to do it.  Or, maybe I do, but what I want to say I just do not want to share it with you.


I read others’ writings and thoughts.  I am torn about writing and what I want to say because, somethings do not need to be written.  Everything about my life and what my family is going through does not need to be in my blog.  It does not needed to be tweeted about and you don’t need to see my instagram and my family inside joke doesn’t need a hashtag.  


One of the best lines I’ve read recently comes from Simon Tugwell in his book “Ways of Imperfection,” where he writes, “The first work of grace is simply to enable us to begin to understand what is wrong.”  That really resonates with me.  It is good spirituality for a Methodist because John Wesley called the first work of God’s grace: prevenient grace - “the grace that goes before.”  God is working for our good before we even believe in God and maybe,the first thing we need to know is what is wrong.


Wait, no, that isn’t what Tugwell said, it was, “...begin to understand…”  Maybe it is a slight slip, maybe “Freudian” because we sure seem to always want to “know” things.  We want the facts and the truth on our side and once they are there THEN we can keep things straight.

Keep telling yourself that.  Go ahead.  But it seems to me, we are always only beginning to understand just about everything.  That is especially true when we get it in our heads that the world is somehow supposed to be a certain way.  That is what I think Ernest Kurtz and Katherine Ketcham are getting at when the write,  "Much of the pain of spiritual suffering, comes from wallowing in wishes and fantasies of things being other than the way they are." (from "The Spirituality of Imperfection")


When you watch your family suffering through things you just KNOW should not be happening, that are simply NOT RIGHT, you hear a lot well meaning words and attempts to comfort which simply do not resonate.  What you are aware of is that something is WRONG, and it is wrong with all of us, it is wrong in all of us and within any number of circumstances and with the world, “but there is nothing wrong with that, because that is the nature of REALITY” (28, ibid).


Maybe this is more to do with Paul’s words in 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 where he says famously,  “But [God] said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.  For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”  Here is the problem with dreaming of having a “first century church,” it was full of the same reality we still have - people wanting to be God and learning they are not.

It is in the wound, in the weakness where God comes and enters our lives. We are being cornered by the “Hound of Heaven” and called by the “Trumpet in Zion” to give up our claim to being the Christ and simply allow Jesus to be who He is. This is why we must, in the face of cruelty, persecution, evil and the like, we continue to offer Christ and we continue to be as Christ to those in need but we aren't THE Christ.  

I cannot see anything right about my wife’s suffering from her cancer and the effects on our family.  We don’t get to be strong, we get to give up and in giving up, we can receive the grace of beginning to understand what truly is wrong.


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